Challenge : June 14 to June 29!

I'm planning to burn 700 calories daily. But, I'm not sure if I can lose 10 lbs in 15 days!! Let's see how it works. I'll try my best . On the other hand, last summer I lost 30 pounds... I know that's a lot. So if I did it before, I can definitely do it now. It's not easy. No one said that it would be, but someone has to do it.... and that person is ME! I need to get into my ana mode...  I'd wish I didn't have to, but  she is there... always on my head, telling me that I'm fat... . 

Last week, I went on a date with Thomas. It was a blind date. Although I had seen his pictures, I didn't have great expections because some people only provide their best pictures. Basically, I was expecting him to be either weird or just not good enough for me. I guess I was expecting all those bad things that happen in blind dates. I just didn't want to idealize anything, and then have my expections destroyed.

However, the date was PERFECT. He looked great. He had all the characteristics that I look in a date: tall, charming, cute, nice car, and good sense of fashion. And let's not forget the most important thing: he found me attractive. In his own words: "You have my brownie points," "I can't stop staring at you," "You are so pretty," "You look nice." Yes, I died and went to heaven during this date.

We went to Macaroni Grill. After dinner, we went to the local mall, walked around, got into Victoria's Secret, and talked about so many things that I can't even remember. Then, I confessed my love to Thomas.... hehehe just kidding. I simply said: "I think I like you. You seen like a nice guy." He was so happy that he made me say that TWICE.

After dinner, we went to watch Ice Age 2. The movie was great, and  he kept playing with my right hand the whole time. Then, he would softly massage my arm... and there is more!!!   He kissed my right shoulder at least 7 times!!   Oh I really liked that part.

At the end of the date, when we were saying Goodbye... I stoled a kiss from him. He was planning to kiss me on my right cheek, but I turned my head and kiss him right on the lips. It was quick though... kinda like a surprised kiss! He laughed and said: "Oh you caught me!" I just smiled and said goodbye.

The next day, something happened. Thomas sent me a text message saying that he missed me & that he wanted to see me. He asked me what I was doing & if I had any plans. We sent several text messages to each other, but nothing happened. We didn't meet. In my opinion, it was the best choice because it was too soon. I called my best friend to ask her for advice & she also said that it was too soon.

The next day (Monday), he called me. We talked for a short time and I promised to call him on Wednesday.

On Wednesday, we talked. He said that he was at a car dealer looking for motorcycles with his roomate. We agreed to do something during the weekend. He said that he was going to call me on Friday.

Tonight, he called me. I really wanted to see him today. However, I got a wisdom tooth removed in the morning & my mouth still hurts (kind of). I texted Thomas after I got out of the dentist to let him know about it & I asked him to call me back in the afternoon. But nope! he didn't do that. Actually, I thought he wasn't going to call me AT ALL! Oh well, at least he called me at night. He was playing video games and he just forgot.... Grrr

He invited me to go to some place in Maryland to listen to a band playing live. I accepted, but then he mentioned that we would have to stay there till 2 or 3 AM because his roomate is in charge of the audio system and Thomas is going to help him.  WTF? What kind of date is that? Plus, I want to get to know Thomas better. I just don't feel confortable going to a place so far away from my house with 2 guys that I hardly know. If I went ONLY with Thomas, then I would probably go. But, that's not the case. I told Thomas that I didn't want to go because it was too far away and it was going to take the WHOLE NIGHT.

He said that maybe we could see the band when they play nearby.

I told Thomas that I wanted to see him on Saturday, but that it wasn't probably going to happen. He said that he was free before 9PM. He mentioned that he and his roomate are going to do some "shooting range" in the morning. He suggested me to come, but Shooting Range ? Mhh... that's such a guy-thing. Can't he be more romantic?  

Anyway, I have a meeting with my sorority sisters at 10 AM. So, I don't think I can go shooting with him!!!!!!!  He promised to call me in the morning to see if we can do something. But, who knows....

What happened to the perfect date that we had last weekend? I was hoping to go to dinner again. But, I guess that is not going to happen. Right now, I don't have any hope. I am not even sure if we will go out again .

B: tea

L: nothing

D: tea + 2 spoons of dinner   

Yes, I'm only having 2 spoons of food for dinner. Well, I already had it, but that's it!! As soon as I got home, my mom told me that she had cooked something *delicious* She usually plays tricks on me to make me eat, but this time she failed! MUAHHHAHA! I'm not eating. Period.

The funny thing is that I'm not even hungry. So my dinner is just sitting on my desk. It is already cold and it looks NASTY.

Today, I discovered that warm tea is better than coffee. I've also noticed that warm tea controls my hunger. While I was driving home from work, I kept thinking about food and I kept seeing images of food in my head. But, I kept telling myself that it was wrong. Yes, it is wrong because I'm FAT. It is wrong because I need to lose weight. It is wrong because I need to take control.

So here I am. I was able to control my hunger and I feel so proud of myself . I know... being proud for not eating sounds retarded. But, I am. I'm happy. It is like a weird sensation inside of me that tells me that everything is going to be alright.  

Do not give up on what you want most, for what you want at the moment.

B: nothing

L: nothing

D: tea

Today, I'm proud of my eating habits . Maybe, being sick is not that bad afterall. After getting home from work, I asked my mom to make me tea. I was planning to go to the gym, but my mom said that it wasn't a good idea because my nose is still running and all that. So, I'm just laying on bed studying.  Oh I love this!! I'm working on my two favorite things: Getting smarter and skinnier! what could be better than this?!!

My mom asked me if I ate before coming home & I lied saying that I did. To make her feel better, I asked her to bring me an apple for dinner. But, the apple is still sitting on my desk & it will probably stay there till tomorrow.

Anyway, I can't say that I'm calorie free because I was taking Robitusin (medication) this morning. OMG! it probably has a bunch of calories!!!  Gosh... why didn't I think about this before?

It's 5:44 AM and I am un-usually ready to go to work. I leave my house around 6:10 AM so I have some time to write here... I asked one of my friends what she thought of the place that I wanted to rent. She said that it was OK, just that... OK. So this makes me believe that the place is not that great. Mhhh... it is definitely out of my list.

Now, the place that I REALLY like is more expensive: $1550 for a 1 bedroom apartment, and $1300 for a studio. I don't think electricity is included. I was thinking that maybe I could rent the studio. However, I just realized that I'm going to get a promotion after 6 months. According to a chart that I got from my job, my salary is going to be increased from $56K to $59K.

So and right now, I'm paying around $600 in taxes biweekly. Isn't that great? I could go shopping with that money .

I'm sick. My nose is running and I hate it . Yesterday, I went to the gym, but I couldn't really work out because I was feeling like shit. So, I'm not sure if I'll go to the gym today.  Oh and I lost my only comb!! So, I'm just trying to fix my hair using my beautiful fingers, lol. Ahh... I'd wish I could stay on bed and not go to work.